Perks

"This one moment when you know you’re not a sad story. You are alive. And you stand up and see the lights on the buildings and everything that makes you wonder. And you’re listening to that song, and that drive with the people who you love most in this world. And in this moment, I swear, we are infinite.” 
Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower

Hellohello I'm finally here :D I wanna tell you something may be it's quite late but ok no problemo. I just watched a movie titled "the perks of being a wallflower" I know it's 2012 production and I just watched in this month hahaha. I really love the scenes and the characters. There're 3 main of actors here, they're Logan, Emma Watson, and Ezra Miller. And now I'm ezra hipster lol.. He acts as a gay here but damn I love his characters and his real life and character isn't really different. He is crazy ! Barely the gay/ fag character is just in the role :p I've watched his interview and damn lol he is really crazy and they wrote as queer star hahaha. I found his photograph with Peter Richardson too! Obviously I love him with his manly beard rather than skinny ones. Yeah I love Ezra Miller eventhough my friend said "hey Logan is better! Why you choose this skinny guy and he is like a faggot" Damn but I love him, and I never even love skinny guy before. He is too skinny may be in most of his movies,but trust me he is awesome ! You should watch the movie ! The soundtracks are the greatest 90s 80s tracks too. Lol I don't know what the year is absolutely hahaha..

Ok back to art lines, I'm still learning about graphic design and just finished some designs with the magical tools in photoshop. I think it's too simple because obviously I just used add picture- then multiply indeed. The first picture above is my first and only design with color background loll. I'll try another I bet.

 Bytheway I've joined pinterest finally hahaha you can find the button on right sidebar ;;)

“If somebody likes me, I want them to like the real me, not what they think I am. And I don't want them to carry it around inside. I want them to show me, so I can feel it, too. I want them to be able to do whatever they want around me.” 

 Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower

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End of Feb 2013

Happy Thursday and end of our Feb,2013 for all man's in this universe ! I really got a lot lot of prizes from Allah lately, meanwhile I got few things still in trouble. But I'm so thankful and proud of my self. May be for some peoples this is so usual but for me this is my first time hahaha. So what's it ? Umm it's about my last score that I've told before. And I got more than B so it's so amazing for me, I never get it before for the medical studies. "More than B" is kind of grace. I can't be calm and sorry it's so overrr but ok calm now hehe..

Anyway I've finished my new artwork and inspirated by Emma Watson. Yes! I like this girl and her beauty in Harry Potter movie is definitely true. But I don't wanna talk about her wardrobe malfunction hahaha lol I know it's annoying. At least she's so beautiful. I think it's a simple draw for me and as always my obstacle is 'realism' make real make it alive. I can't make a super real draw/portrait, I should work harder and need lot of practices, promise it :)

BAIBAI~

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dear friends,

I don't know but I think it should be better if I can write something here right now. Everyone has their feeling and perception. Moreover, if you are in different culture, habit, or may be maturity. Sometimes you'll feel like  'damn you' and that's kind a hard slap for you. A feeling that you're need one word, "tolerant". Yes, just be patient. Mad isn't a good way to go. Because we're in heterogeneous world and differences are common. 

As I said before, someday in this super various cultures you'll think it as good words or just a joke or something that it's not kind of problem for you. But may be someone assumes it as mocking words or something bad for his/her self. Yea...you know have to do. If you know that person the real he/she is, you can count him/her as well. May be he/she just wanna breaks the ice and makes a good joke for you, but in a wrong time when you're in a bad condition or temper. Mood is one of many reasons that makes someone feeling mad for something that other peoples think it's not a matter and may be they will ask "why you mad at me ? is it a problem for you ?" 

Friendship... is not something you learn in school. But if you haven't learned the meaning of friendship, you really haven't learned anything. 

Muhammad Ali 

I've an own perception that a good friendship should has a situation that they're in trouble or may be called storming area. They will blow their own decisions and hold on their egos. But this time we will know how is the true friendship. We'll feel and found it. So far you will feel you need something in your life and now it's lost. Good friends will decrease their own egos and humbling for you to apologize. 

Then someday you prefer to silent than talk something and hurt anyone else. Sometimes I trap in this condition that I better silent and stick in my head "silent is gold". If I keep that silent may be someone will gets better and continues their life peacefully. I can't write it in simple sentences and may be you know what I mean. 

I never want to blame anyone, I'm sorry. I just wanna trust everyone who knows me that I never want to ruin or fell you. I always want be a good partner or soulmate for you guys. I never purpose to insult you, because I know that I just an ordinary girl in an extraordinary world. 

If you've a problem or something of me that you feel it bad for you, just tell me and let me know what's the problem. I'll fix it as better as I can. Everyone has their thought which is we can't tell it as a wrong perception if we can found a deep reason in it.  I'll always try to be your good friend although you feel that I'm your enemy or someone. Because I know that giving a goodness is better than anything else. 

I'm sorry for my bad grammar and vocab, thankyou :) cheers I love you all...

One of the most beautiful qualities of true friendship is to understand and to be understood. 

Lucius Annaeus Seneca 

RETURN - new life journey

OK inhale-exhale-inhale-exhale. HOW ARE YOU GUYS WASSUP ! its been a long long time I'm not updating here right ? No October's post :( And I know it will be the only beginning of my new life in medical faculty. Since I had orientation at first till now I feel so crazy check out my schedules, yes omg this is so hard I even can spend my weekend holiday for university activities, discussion, and assignment. Everyday is learning = tutorials, big classes, then be a nerd girl. Library is my favourite crib now. But this is my responsibility. I must do and work or I'll be kick as a notorious donkey. 

Now the consequences I must study harder, work harder, and memorize quickly lol~ yes specially for anatomy class, I need big struggles for any temptations hahaha. Smart, diligent, and active are the good modals. But life isn't about to study with book and memorize them then you know it completely. You need to understand them. 

Learn isn't a tape recorder but we turn our video games.

I've so much stories to tell, and some are epic and so complex. As a medical student I must make friendship and chillin' with cadaver yes cadaver. "They're your lectures" my seniors always said about it everyday when I got orientation. And jjang finally I met him in second day of orientation and the senior gave me a mission. Him ? Yes my lecture a.k.a cadaver is a guy. I through a dark room like a haunted house and my eyes felt so bad that now I know it was formalin. Then I yelled at my senior what happen to my eyes, so ached rofl~ but they were keep killer and so irritated. Ok calm down mafiga then I touched my lecture who lied down on a kind of metal bedstead, there was only one candle for light in that room and I just realized that I'm alone! I touched his right thigh- right hand- and I moved to other side but I couldn't see his head though ! it was so dark. We were prohibited to carrying the candle crossed the cadaver. I thought I'm so so so lucky I found small paper written "urethritis". Omg mission accomplished ! Of course I found it in his trousers (I dunno he still wearing trousers or not but I think he is) -_- that part, yea you can imagine where's urethritis in right. I feel so dumb why I didn't think just in that part and wasted my time to touched his hand, foot, blablabla. I even stunned looking his boots -_- yes my lecture still wearing boots. I don't know it was boots or somethin' because I couldn't see correctly but I saw it like a boots or his skin ? hmm. I know my senior laughed at me if she/he was there. Then I walked out and jjang it wasn't over ! they're a.k.a seniors waited us outside, uugh ok but I found the weapon "urethritis paper" rofl~ 

So much fun in my orientation and I love my group lol we even couldn't serious in every sec, we couldn't form a line and the seniors always annoyed about our group name lol but the impact is we'll famous. Whatever, the important is we're enjoy and happy hahaha. I'll always remember that day. 

I've other story about other orientation umm may be called familiarity night idk. After may be 5 weeks learned as a medical student, I joined familiarity night in Tawangmangu. Umm quite great hehe I love the weather there. Then the first night we had a night adventure, I thought it'll be scary buttt it was only tiring huhu.. The second day we had a trip  and outbond to waterfall and you knowwww it was so so tiring over all and the route isn't as simple as I thought before. You can die slipped in the valley -_- yes may be like that. But it was good experience and I've lot of new friends.

I want tell the other big stories about my new life now but I think its enough ahahahaha this post will be so long. This Sunday morning, I'm deliberately spending time for drawing and sketching. I miss my world for drawing, sketchin', and blogging. But I should know I've other responsibility for my future now. Be a five stars doctor *took from my faculty vision lmaooo.. God bless us! Amieen............. :*

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"Success seems to be connected with action. Successful men keep moving. They make mistakes, but they don't quit."
 Conrad Hilton 
"Good ideas are not adopted automatically. They must be driven into practice with courageous patience."
Admiral Hyman Rickover
All of us failed to match our dreams of perfection. So I rate us on the basis of our splendid failure to do the impossible.
 William Faulkner 
This is not our failure, our God still keeping our right direction. Perseverance is kind of spirit that only can opens God chest to giving our perfecto our fantastico our right direction and dreams to be true. 
Congratulation for all new born collage students in Indonesia :) keep your chance :)